I do think i'm indifferent than others ;
but i can't define myself
most of her friends said she loco,
her 101% of curiosity and laughters can kill them all,
she needs sugar to keep her sane,
she is finding a guy to hold her hand to keep her safe
and sound for the rest of her life,
her biggest wish is her family and friends are happy always.
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but i can't define myself
silhouette
smoke makes me sneeze
I write nuts ;
just so you know
Plaster can't help the pain
Tuesday, May 24, 2011 ( 7:28 PM )
Since I'm in my holiday so ya I think I should blog a little..
There are too much going on and i can't barely handle well
In fact, I'm screwed..
I just don't feel like going back Uni
People and gossips are so unkind
I'm too weak to deal with fucked up things
Words like knives. When it scarred, it stays there forever.
Again, don't hurt people cuz eventually people will hurt you back.
That's karma!
There are too much going on and i can't barely handle well
In fact, I'm screwed..
I just don't feel like going back Uni
People and gossips are so unkind
I'm too weak to deal with fucked up things
Words like knives. When it scarred, it stays there forever.
Again, don't hurt people cuz eventually people will hurt you back.
That's karma!
I hate you ES!
Thursday, December 9, 2010 ( 1:21 PM )
2 more papers to go then i'm done!
Oh yes, i'm going to visit disabled children tmr!
i miss them very very much especially hema =p
I really wish i could spend time with them everyday
I need to study for ES..
but proscrastinating now..
Sigh.. you know what?
I really wish i can hate you..
Thanks for everything!!
Miss halfway
Wednesday, February 10, 2010 ( 12:22 AM )
Rough month! New lecture has been stored. I need back up! I can't handle all these crap alone! fucking annoying! I hate it when i'm all awake in the middle of the night. Thinking how to handle craps. Do you even understand? i fucking made the wrong choice.. do you know how hard it is when nobody heard you.. do you ever ask yourself with what you just did? do you know how fucking selfish are you? do you even know that i fucking hate you? i can't fucking get it! i can't fucking handle myself anymore! i'm fucking unhappy and i can't show it to anyone! fucking hate myself not a fully grown up! Thanks to you that i fucking get it with what fucking thing that you just did and i'm fucking appreciate with every little fucking effort you made! At least i know when i fucking need help, i won't fucking find you just because you're fucking not the one to back me up!
So called new year revolution
Sunday, January 3, 2010 ( 10:06 PM )
It's 2010 already. I forgot what's my new year revolution!
well, i don't understand why i have the urge to blog right now
but i just feel sketchy with the whole new year thing.
Anyway my new year resolutions...
My family which is my biggest wish,
hoping that 1 day i can have all my siblings and parents to hang out together.
The family thing is really cool, for some may think it's a bit cliche
but what brings u to the world?
your family for sure!
But i don't understand why sometimes she just wants to make things up.
The shouting part may makes u a winner but a loser for the family.
I mean if u can't even handle urself, what makes u think u can handle ur family?
Dad told me making a huge argument is not helping which i really agree,
i was wondering what if that day mum do things differently.
Could we end up differently?
I do feel upset when i see ppl chill out with family, really.
Many of my friends said that i was really optimistic
cuz i have a very complicated family
but there's only 1 thought makes me stand strong for it,
I can find my own happiness.
Secondly, i wish i can have more freedom.
Speaking of freedom, i just realised i already 20 this year.
Like hell ya, a 20 years old girl needs permission to do every little thing.
It's like a force for me to lie to do certain things.
I don't plan to do so but i do for the sake of my own freedom.
I didn't talk to her cuz i know when i really talk to her,
she would probably curfew me or something.
Maybe i did when i was drunk.
I feel unfair when she did that to me.
I would probably kill myself 1 day to end everything!
Nah, just joking! Suicide is an irrational act.
Maybe i would just run out of the house, really.
Cuz it sucks to obey everything and she just don't realised
that i did my job as a daughter.
It kills me when she said something really hurtful.
I don't feel good when i'm home.
I wish I can just go somewhere quiet and have peace of mind.
Monday, October 26, 2009 ( 8:34 PM )
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amen for twitter!
Sunday, October 11, 2009 ( 9:34 PM )
give me a reason
if you don't wanna punch her!
i do love my life (:
Tuesday, October 6, 2009 ( 10:08 PM )
okay, i have so much to talk about
i got back my car and some moron
i got back my car and some moron
banged my car and ciaoed in college
had 10 mins talk with Ilyas,
had 10 mins talk with Ilyas,
my philosophy lecturer
he was cool when he didn't make
he was cool when he didn't make
I'M-YOUR-LECTURER face!
still got research paper
still got research paper
and 1 more phil assignment to go =(
we gonna have aesthetic project
we gonna have aesthetic project
this sat in lake garden! hurray~
Ilyas said we need to take
Ilyas said we need to take
a detail photograph, sounds cool!
i just realised there's
i just realised there's
photography club in college
lastly, can you guys support
lastly, can you guys support
my silly blondie's blogshop? =P
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