Pretty strange of mine

Plaster can't help the pain

2011-05-24T19:28:00.006+08:00

Since I'm in my holiday so ya I think I should blog a little..
There are too much going on and i can't barely handle well
In fact, I'm screwed..
I just don't feel like going back Uni
People and gossips are so unkind
I'm too weak to deal with fucked up things
Words like knives. When it scarred, it stays there forever.
Again, don't hurt people cuz eventually people will hurt you back.
That's karma!

I hate you ES!

2010-12-09T13:21:00.002+08:00

2 more papers to go then i'm done!

Oh yes, i'm going to visit disabled children tmr!

i miss them very very much especially hema =p

I really wish i could spend time with them everyday

I need to study for ES..

but proscrastinating now..

Sigh.. you know what?

I really wish i can hate you..

Thanks for everything!!

Miss halfway

2010-02-10T00:22:00.005+08:00

Rough month! New lecture has been stored. I need back up! I can't handle all these crap alone! fucking annoying! I hate it when i'm all awake in the middle of the night. Thinking how to handle craps. Do you even understand? i fucking made the wrong choice.. do you know how hard it is when nobody heard you.. do you ever ask yourself with what you just did? do you know how fucking selfish are you? do you even know that i fucking hate you? i can't fucking get it! i can't fucking handle myself anymore! i'm fucking unhappy and i can't show it to anyone! fucking hate myself not a fully grown up! Thanks to you that i fucking get it with what fucking thing that you just did and i'm fucking appreciate with every little fucking effort you made! At least i know when i fucking need help, i won't fucking find you just because you're fucking not the one to back me up!

So called new year revolution

2010-01-03T22:06:00.005+08:00

It's 2010 already. I forgot what's my new year revolution!

well, i don't understand why i have the urge to blog right now

but i just feel sketchy with the whole new year thing.

Anyway my new year resolutions...

My family which is my biggest wish,

hoping that 1 day i can have all my siblings and parents to hang out together.

The family thing is really cool, for some may think it's a bit cliche

but what brings u to the world?

your family for sure!

But i don't understand why sometimes she just wants to make things up.

The shouting part may makes u a winner but a loser for the family.

I mean if u can't even handle urself, what makes u think u can handle ur family?

Dad told me making a huge argument is not helping which i really agree,

i was wondering what if that day mum do things differently.

Could we end up differently?

I do feel upset when i see ppl chill out with family, really.

Many of my friends said that i was really optimistic

cuz i have a very complicated family

but there's only 1 thought makes me stand strong for it,

I can find my own happiness.

Secondly, i wish i can have more freedom.

Speaking of freedom, i just realised i already 20 this year.

Like hell ya, a 20 years old girl needs permission to do every little thing.

It's like a force for me to lie to do certain things.

I don't plan to do so but i do for the sake of my own freedom.

I didn't talk to her cuz i know when i really talk to her,

she would probably curfew me or something.

Maybe i did when i was drunk.

I feel unfair when she did that to me.

I would probably kill myself 1 day to end everything!

Nah, just joking! Suicide is an irrational act.

Maybe i would just run out of the house, really.

Cuz it sucks to obey everything and she just don't realised

that i did my job as a daughter.

It kills me when she said something really hurtful.

I don't feel good when i'm home.

I wish I can just go somewhere quiet and have peace of mind.

2009-10-26T20:34:00.002+08:00

new arrivals at joyestelle!

click to check out more newbies! =)

amen for twitter!

2009-10-11T21:34:00.002+08:00

give me a reason

if you don't wanna punch her!

i do love my life (:

2009-10-06T22:08:00.009+08:00

okay, i have so much to talk about
i got back my car and some moron

banged my car and ciaoed in college
had 10 mins talk with Ilyas,

my philosophy lecturer
he was cool when he didn't make

I'M-YOUR-LECTURER face!
still got research paper

and 1 more phil assignment to go =(
we gonna have aesthetic project

this sat in lake garden! hurray~
Ilyas said we need to take

a detail photograph, sounds cool!
i just realised there's

photography club in college
lastly, can you guys support

my silly blondie's blogshop? =P

check out

http://www.joyestelle.blogspot.com/

for more info =)

Art beyond words

2009-10-01T22:20:00.003+08:00

we watched 3 short clips during phil today

its some kind of dance intepretation

which i would like to share

but i found 1 only!

part 1:20 was awesome

foodismybestfriend

2009-09-30T22:35:00.008+08:00

i love greentea soba! =)
ijustrealisedthesaddestthingiswhenyougotnoonetotalkto
thehardestthingisustillneedtosmiletogetoveritmumhasabestfriendfor30years
anditoldherimgonnahaveonetoobutnonotanymore

allicanthinkisdie

2009-09-27T15:09:00.003+08:00

igotnocarthelistofbusrouteisconfusing
howamigonnacrawltokotadamansara
whyimhavinglifelikethat
iwannascreamwhatthefuckisgoingon
whathappenedtome
ididnotdoanythingwrong
whygodwannapunishmeinthisway
howiwishicandiereally
justletmedieandstopthinking
itwouldbepeaceofmineseriously

falling apart

2009-09-26T18:02:00.004+08:00

after careful consideration and many sleepless nights
there's no such thing as a grown-up
i normally wouldn't tell anyone how deep down inside i felt
cuz whenever ppl know what's on your mind
there is no longer you anymore, never existed
this is how communication started
we start to think, feel and observe one's behaviour
communication, it's the first thing we really learn in life.
the funny thing is, once we grow up, learn our words and really start talking, the harder it becomes to know what to say
Or how to ask for what we really need
sigh. no one ever knows how i feel!
i can't survive without my car, penniless and a cracked phone!
i'm so frustrated!

mydreamcrib

2009-09-23T23:23:00.005+08:00

went to rachel's new crib yesterday
we played pool in the living room
dad praised my pool skills X)
anyway i hate playing with ernest
cuz whenever i play with him
i have only one thought

youshouldknowwhatisappropriate!

2009-09-23T14:36:00.004+08:00

went maybank in the noon with esther
when i was asking the girl something
an old malay lady approached esther
OML: tak boleh pakai sleeveless dan seluar pendek lah, memang kurand ajar tau?
Esther: ...*silent and gave ma the stunned look
Me: what is wrong with you? * looking at the OML
then when we are about to go
OML: lain kali jangan macam ini
i was really pissed that she light my temper up again
Me: it's your problem if you being conservative!
OML: it's not conservative apa-apa..*mumble alone
Me: okay okay, fine.. your wish!
Ps: i'm not being disrespect but then i don't find wearing mini skirt/sleeveless/shorts or whatsoever can be inappropriate in bank.

I feel for Taylor

2009-09-20T12:21:00.002+08:00

Kanye just did that!

Obama said he's an jackass. tsk

chocolate

2009-09-11T22:12:00.010+08:00

one paragraphed essay is crazy
filled with craps i swear and currently i'm having major confusion in philosophy
there's a before and after lecture's syndrome
which is first u had ur ideas after crunching every little word
then after lecture, ur ideas were burnt and starts to think which is which
anyway, we watched a superb short film by a director of malaysia
she damn daring. i love her courage
it says about the multifaceted contradiction of Malaysia and we were asked to analyse the mother's decision in the film for her own and her son
ps:yasmin's a malay and she married a chinese
pps:double daring X)
ppps:the son in the film, damn typical malaysian, us X)

credit goes to Yasmin Ahmad

NO TIME! just keep thinking

2009-09-08T22:13:00.002+08:00

it's a tough day for everyone i guess
after an unrest and procrastinates a lot long weekend
lecture today went insane with the debate, phoebe and nisha are actually argue over a seed
anyway, i'm still confused about the lecture today
a seed is neutral or has its good and bad or is either bad or good?
this is not gonna finish when there is no right or wrong
the different perceptions
the questioned lecture who likes to see us with doubts and eye brow raising faces
but somehow i think the seed has its good insight with the power of nature!
he must be thinking i'm a mad cow with what i told him today! LOL

aid me, aristotle the great!

2009-08-26T16:42:00.005+08:00

PHILOSOPHY

philia + sophia

love + wisdom

the love of wisdom

p/s: okay, i shall continue to smoke for my philo! ):

it's cheesy being a chinese!

2009-08-18T13:22:00.008+08:00

i got my damn flu again
whenever i sneeze, my mum would give me that stare
as if i commited crime as a serial killer
she would nagged me for not putting up my blanket properly
and this is how i got my asthma when i was a kid
and ghost festival is looming!
thanks to my mum overly superstitious friend!
there's a do's and don't's list.
my mum was hint-ing me not to go out at night.
seriously, chinese belief kills me ninety-nine!
but of course, i won't play with fire.
i feel goosebump whenever i heard stuff like that.
oh yeah, my college will be starting on 24th next week!
bring me white roses if i screwed up! tsk

the beast line is too tempting to cross

2009-08-16T13:18:00.004+08:00

it is very easy to moan, to complain, to criticize.
it is much harder to find something nice to say about a situation or a person.
saying something nice is hard because our natural inclination is to moan.
but no matter how horrid someone is, there is always something about them that is good.
as in no matter how much i complained, i do feel bad.
the guilt is in me. i don't mean it but just to say it out.
bad people don't feel guilty, they are too busy being bad.
good people feel guilty because they are good they have done wrong.
good people have conscience. bad people don't.
it shows you on the right track.
okay. i'm not here to tell you how good i am
but i'll only reveal my bad person to my dumb blondie!
ps: say OMG when you see this!

trouble is a friend

2009-08-16T01:59:00.001+08:00

i recently hang out with my new best friend

my role as a child

2009-08-15T15:42:00.004+08:00

Life is too short to wake up
in the morning with regrets,
so love the people who treat you
right and forget the ones
that don't and believe that
everything happens for a reason

if you get a chance, take it

if it changes your life, let it

and 24 hrs a day is not enough cuz

any Tom, Dick or Harry

2009-08-13T12:19:00.004+08:00

i shall make this a quick post
early to bed and early to rise,
makes a man healthy, wealthy and wise
is so not gonna happen in my life
i've had really bad dreams until this morning
damn. it's countless of bad dreams
anyways,
everyone has friends
hi bye friend, good friend, best friend, true friend
hang out friend, nasty friend, frenemy,
letter writing friend
oh speaking of it,
i will write to he/she if i have one!
i used to think letter writing
is cool and hearty enough
it's butter to send it out
but is never for the queue
so yeah, i need well clicked friends,
have heart to heart talk,
do everything together,
don't take offence that easily.
bloody hard to find one,
can't deny i found joey for now
or maybe leconte as well,
if only you bake me something! ;) haa~

snapshot of the month

2009-08-10T18:05:00.006+08:00

ps: just in case you can't recall the header of my blog!

creepy fashion

2009-08-10T17:51:00.004+08:00

retro is what we going after now

but what say you when you see

boy george

p/s: imagine your bf sharing your make up kit!

could you please direct me?

2009-07-26T00:06:00.003+08:00

insecurity makes me shiver non-stop
it's like a cold,
you cough and sneeze
and hoping it will get away
the very next moment
all we need is a right remedy for it, no?
but sometimes,
a remedy don't get the privilege
maybe a right person
with a special remedy
to take away
the cold from a sick person
i always have doubts in everything
i'm physically a grown up,
i grew taller and stronger
but still
it's hard to move on to the upper stage

her lame lessons learnt

2009-07-25T18:43:00.008+08:00

went supper with the family yesterday

had hot and spicy crab with buns *syok

then when i was happily eating the crab

here comes the spoiler

esther: yer..why so hairy eh?

me: duh! sure got some hair wan la

esther: but why? like pubic hair la..

me: -______-

talking to a sibling like that can kill me soon!

i'm a sinner

2009-07-24T18:06:00.005+08:00

we're human
we make mistakes
we misestimate
we make bad judgements
people get hurt
the old said, it takes 3 years to get humble
and it takes only 3 days to get evil
i'm trying to change not to
judge a book by it's cover
sometimes i just wanna stab myself
cuz my words like knives
but i'm trying my best to change, seriously
to wash away my sins

ice cube my temper

2009-07-22T16:40:00.004+08:00

if you see nuts like a
whole damn galaxy then you're not cool
heard of take it or leave it?
learn it. it makes your life more comfy, i swear
and today is the worst day of the week
jesus christ! everything went upside down
wasted my god damn
energy and time and money
blame the siblings for not refilling the ink tank
and last minute project rushing
anyways, i cut my nails shorter and i feel weird
as if i'm having somebody else's fingers
damn, i don't feel well at all
time to take a siesta!

hold my hand no matter what

2009-07-18T17:42:00.003+08:00

people who know me have the same idea
i comment a lot, seriously
i don't know why but something
just pop out of my mind
and i need to speak up to loosen my throat
i can't help it, it's my personality
i will change if anyone can change my mind
anyway, i can't wait to start my solitary college life
a new environment, a new bunch of ppl, a new routine, to run my life
and there's something i still don't get it
when ppl promised you best friends forever
but they hurt you again and again
and i feel sorry for not putting the effort
to get back the pieces of the friendship
just because you think i had affair with your ex,
you think i bitched at the back of you
then you come back to me without feeling sorry at all or flew away without saying anything
seriously, i hate to make commitment nowadays
i'm so afraid to get hurt again and again
because i know too much about this harsh reality life and that's what friend comes and goes
i wanted to clear out what i've been thinking and seriously it hurts a lot

history

2009-07-15T20:37:00.005+08:00

New wounds which are so horribly painful
or old wounds that should have
healed years ago and never did?
Maybe our old wounds teach us something.
They remind us where we've been
and what we've overcome.
They teach us lessons about
what to avoid in the future.
That's what we like to think.
But that's not the way it is
Some things we just have to learn
over and over and over again.
"Some people believe that without history, our lives amount to nothing"
At some point we all have to choose
do we fall back on what we know
or do we step forward to something new?
It's hard not to be haunted by our past.
Our history is what shapes us, what guides us
Our history resurfaces time after time
So we have to remember sometimes the most important history is the history we’re making today

wildlthy day

2009-07-14T08:27:00.006+08:00

i’m having an ineffably healthy day i guess
i woke up at 6.30 to fetch esther then came home and had yogurt due to vanessa’s influence.
then, i went to jog for 30 mins.
you know what, i don’t do neighbor talking at all.
seriously, i can’t stand the gaucheness.
when you smile, they give you the
“omg! Are you an alien?” seriously
i would rather give them a cold dead look
and surprisingly, i saw my grandma’s friend
my grandma passed away when I was form 1
okay, her friend still pink in health!
i didn’t see ghost!!
and the feeling came back,
i miss my grandma a lot.
anyway, I didn’t manage to do my jogging any longer just because my bro, Po!
esther and i called him “Po” just because he looked like kung fu panda.
huge in size but he has a funny personality. LOL
yes, i hate to wake my siblings up.
he wouldn’t even know the next building collapsed and sometimes i need to slam the whole damn door then he will end up dream talking.
so yeah let me enjoy my puffed wheat with milk now and play the goddamn wii alone!
i'm about to get wild since my mother is not around

i need food

2009-07-13T21:16:00.003+08:00

There's an old proverb that says
you can't choose your family
You take what fate handle you
And like them or not, love them or not,
understand them or not, you cope
then there's the school of thought
that says the family you're born into
is simply a starting point.
they feed you,
No! my mum don't feed me from now on
clothe you, and take care of you
until you're ready to go out into the world.
there you find your own tribe

I wish I can call 999

2009-07-13T19:31:00.004+08:00

You know what's the

worst thing in mothering?

it's that a mother can let her

daughter die of hunger

seriously! and mother likes

to play silence with you

she wouldn't talk to you but just

.....*silence

damn. eating granny smith and

fragrant pears for dinner

is a total moron!

I don't feel healthy at all

and

I wanna die now

Evian ads

2009-07-12T19:53:00.001+08:00

mummy, tell me about cinderella!

2009-07-09T00:56:00.003+08:00

How i wish i can

have fun just like them

i believe

2009-07-09T00:39:00.001+08:00

king of pop

2009-07-08T01:48:00.006+08:00

well, it's actually a good thing that
Mj's the big star is apart from us
just because God wants Mj to be
with him and stay peacefully
without those frantic media calls
and stories making
i feel really shameful cuz
i just realised how great Mj was
his soft voice and perfect dance steps
can never be replace by others
i'm watching the memorial live on cnn
and when the moment of silence,
all the people shouted michael
you know what, i bet your tears

run down like crap
Michael, we love you and we mean it by heart!
may angels be with you and rest in peace <3

billie jean is not my lover

2009-07-07T11:14:00.002+08:00

this is the 1011 times,

i'm eating my chee cheong fun with fu chuk

for my daily breakfast, seriously!

And cnn is showing the scene of Mj's

shadow in Neverland, seriously?

Vanessa, i bet you missed that. hah..

anyways, i'm so sick with the monthly bloood!

i feel so unwell with it =(

nice or lies

2009-07-05T14:11:00.004+08:00

do you enjoy having a piece of
nicest cake alone?
seriously? when nobody gets one?
i would say i don't!
i would never speed when traffic free
i would rather line up than going to the next lane with a big green light!
i would never go for a set lunch for only 6.90 but a 13.90 and above maybe!
And this ka-ching food industry with bunch of flavorist who tend to flavored everything you had in your stomach!
when it written there fat-free or sugar-free
maybe it contains more carbs than the usual one
just because there's no free lunch in this world!

deggat

2009-07-04T23:24:00.010+08:00

1. What have you been doing recently?

trying to be a thinker

2. Do you ever turn your handphone off?

yes, when i feel annoyed

3. What happened at 10 am today?

brushing up myself

4. When did you last cry?

i don't do crying like leconte =P

5. Believe in fate/destiny?

yesh, i'm waiting for my Mr.the-not-left!

6. What do you want in life now?

to be a stronger person

7. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or just put up your hood?

put up my hood just because i've had my best childhood

8. What's your favourite thing to do on bed?

sleep, duh!

9. What bottoms are you wearing now?

lacey boxer

10. What are the nicest things in your inbox?

the nicest thing is when you stop asking me weird questions!

11. Do you tend to make relationships complicated?

like how? blend it together?

12. Are you wearing anything borrowed from anyone?

yeah! the artsy t-shirt i borrowed from lilian during cny party stay over

13. What was the last movie you caught?

haunted school at joey's

14. What are you proud of?

my sister, vanessa!

15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say and who is it from?

joey asked me to online if im not sleepy

16. What was the last song you sang out loud?

if you seek amy by britney
17. Do you have any nicknames?

ginger, ginseng, genie in the bottle

18. What does the newest text message say and who is it from?

joey sent me life quote

19. What time did you go to sleep last night?

12 i guess after vanessa started Mj's tales during video call

20. Are you currently happy?

not quite just because i'm actually doing this weirdest tag ever

21. Who gives you the best advice?

it depends though

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?

i hate whipped cream

23. Who did you talk to on the phone last night?

lilian

24. Is something bugging you right now?

yes i was wondering should i sleep right now

25. Who was the last person to make you laugh?

my bro's gf cuz she told me tiger is not a vegetarian! LOL

26. Do you like yourself?

why not? weirdo!

27. Do you think you're stupid sometimes?

yes, partially

28. Who is your best friend?

bitches

29. What will you do if you like that boy?

keep thinking of him

30. Who are your favourite stars?

twinkle little star

31. You hate your mother sometimes in some ways?

yes, i would like to scream like no tomorrow

32. Do you even had a stead before?

not really

33. What type of boy you like?

fair guy with thick eyebrow

34. Now, are you single or attached?

single, duh!

tag those weirdos who just like me! X)

damn. can anyone define my feelings?

2009-07-04T20:56:00.008+08:00

I hate being in a big crowd
the more people around
the more alone myself
my heart starts to wander until
i can't recall i'm actually in my reality life.
i know i shouldn't take life that seriously
cuz it's not permanent anyway
but when things get harder
your heart burning with doubts
until the always right, no longer right
and the always wrong, no longer wrong
it's not about being agitated in this frenzy life,
it's about the outcome that we made
it's about the choices that we made
it's about you don't put the blame on others but yourself for not putting real effort for it.
it's about how you perceive yourself in life with different judgements
How i wish god can make me a stronger person
living in this what you guys called life.

My strenght of rejection

2009-07-03T16:42:00.006+08:00

St.Cloud has denied my application
reason - you never demonstrated the academic ability
to be successful at St.Cloud.
well, i'm definitely not okay after my knowledge
that they denied me.
But all i know is i can't sit on my bench
and cry like a loser and keep stomping non-stop,
thinking that maybe they would give me another
chance. no, NO WAY!
I felt so upset that i've been looking forward to
go to America and start my bloody new life
and get over my bloody trashy stuff.
And i don't wanna upset my mum and pretended
like i'm nothing at all.
But seriously, i'm perfectly fine now.
After so many are you okay?
Thanks for the hearty asking, ppl!
Lastly, i'm going back to college again!
With my self-motivation i swear!
p/s: I'm so glad that Joey is fine! =)

I do hate my life but myself.

2009-06-30T13:35:00.002+08:00

3.142

2009-06-30T09:41:00.010+08:00

Restaurant chains like

Applebee’s and TGIFriday’s

have their staff sing a specialized song

to wish customers a happy birthday

in order to avoid paying royalties,

since “Happy Birthday to You”

is a copyrighted tune

anyways thing gets

a little complicated

and it's not as easy as a

world's ugliest dogs

2009-06-29T21:04:00.003+08:00

They made a mistake, it should be

the world's ugliest monsters

I must love child development!

2009-06-29T18:30:00.007+08:00

Okay, i love kids a lot, seriously!
But when something really annoys you
and you wanted to right your siblings
from wrong then here comes the
why, why and why? and i keep asking myself
to control my temper. jeez!
and i can see there's a bunch of loser
who don't know how to get a life!
tell me why they wanna bother
somebody else's business?
i totally don't get it!

The picture itself

2009-06-28T21:04:00.005+08:00

When something begins, you actually
have no idea how it's going to end.
We spend our whole lives worrying about
the future planning for the future,
trying to predict the future.
But the future is always changing.
The future is the home of our deepest fears
and wildest hopes.

But one thing is certain when it finally

reveals itself.

The future is never the way we imagined it.

so stop picturing yourself in future and

complete your recent tasks and

all day long you have good luck!

where she starts her mothering

2009-06-28T10:46:00.005+08:00

I'm blogging using my littlest piggy's lappie
they doing their shower now
and i'm craving for something hot and spicy!
anyways, anne told me that she got 2nd in her class and i'm planning to get her some stuff.
oh damn. i need more cash!
and my mum is so into Mj's death and
keeps googling non-stop!
sooner or later, i can't imagine if she spam my cbox with your mother!
p/s: sounds creepy eh! =(

where's the fun = wtf

2009-06-27T18:21:00.004+08:00

Okay, finally i'm connected!

Well, it's weird without internet all day long

and i wanted to tell vanessa that i wrote

the authorization letter already

and joey, your sister's dummy is with me!

p/s: i scare the dummy talk to me at night =S

anyways sometimes it's not like we wanna wtf

or ftw. It's like when we curse during a

conversation, make it a little more presentable.

LOL. kids better skip this post!

picture of me, picture of you

2009-06-24T00:23:00.007+08:00

The oddies

I wanna cut my bloody long hair!

Gimme some sleeping pills, please!

2009-06-23T23:35:00.006+08:00

I always say to my sister that
I find sleeping is a waste of time
don't ask me why I just think I can find
something better to do rather than sleeping,
seriously just plain boring.
maybe I can't sleep well at night,
insomnia to be precise and
whenever I can't sleep I will either find
something to blog or read some stuff
or listen to say all i need by one republic
cuz it calms me down and gives me a
good night sleep.

do you know where your love is?
do you think that you lost it?
you felt it so strong, but
nothing turned out how you wanted

The looooongest word

2009-06-21T15:44:00.009+08:00

do you know

Pneumonoultramicroscopicsilicovolcanoconiosis

is the longest word that you can ever

find in major dictionary?

it defines as a lung disease caused

by the inhalation of very fine silica dust,

causing inflammation in the lungs

can you imagine when the doctor

tell the whole damn full name of the disease

to the patient when he/she gets infected?

anyways do you sometimes find yourself

putting too much efforts to talk to somebody

and it turned out to this awkward?

A: hey i just bought a new dress :)

B: haha. that's nice!

A: and it's a cheap deal too :)

B: haha. good for you!

A and B: ... (looking at each other in silence)

Asian hates your moron-squinty-ism

2009-06-21T14:14:00.015+08:00

I'm not that kind of girl that

if miley cyrus standing on top

of the empire state building

I'd shout: JUMP BITCH, JUMP!

let me repeat, i'm NOT!

BUT...

I'd use all my energy and run

to the top to give her a golden kick!

I'm sorry if you feel offended

with your funny squinty asian eyes making

can't wait for it

2009-06-20T14:12:00.005+08:00

when zombie exposed to sunlight

2009-06-20T00:24:00.007+08:00

Screw msn! screw the whole connection thing.
i can't online and scold my sis with pm -_-
anyways i wanna make things clear now.
Do you know that singapore is actually
called sungapore?

interested with the hidden
story? ask rina. LOL
And do you know that

you can play with zombie?
ask joey then. LOL

If i were a lesbian

2009-06-19T19:49:00.006+08:00

If anyone ask me to kiss a girl

i would definitely go to

agyness deyn

p/s: i just like her cuz she inspired me in fashion XP

just because i like america =(

2009-06-19T02:04:00.006+08:00

So yeah i had a day out with joey
we read the star together in the cafe
and had this news saying that
malaysia is again blacklisted by the states
for not doing enough for the human trafficking.
i have no idea why. what they mean by not doing enough?
show them every property you own even a piece of paper?
does it make any sense?
America sometimes really kills me,
since St.Cloud is still doing their review
and every of us is suspicious for smuggling into their country.
You know what? If i get approved this time again, i gotta quickly hook up with an american or american born chinese and get married and have my kids look like me and stay in your country and persuade my kids to find malaysian and get married in the states again with my look alike faces!

bandana

2009-06-18T00:48:00.003+08:00

I wanna get myself a

Play with fire no matter what mommy said

2009-06-16T23:34:00.006+08:00

Parents do have their own lingo

no matter what you doing was right

they don't give you the right for the

black and white

they make you confuse in between

when you messed up

they give you a total screw

sometimes kids find it creepy

disease coming all the way to get into you

guest:esther tsan

2009-06-15T21:05:00.005+08:00

hello everyone!!esther here..sister of this blogger =) im helpin' her to spice up her blog..she's gonna kill me for writing such a lame post..that's b'cos i can't spam on her cbox anymore.. =(

(p/s:don kill me ginny XP)

Underestimation

2009-06-15T09:03:00.005+08:00

I seriously don't get it when people look down on one another
the lost of dignity is not what you find it funny
the every sec you laugh, the every piece of your dignity knock off
acting like a bimboy is what i find it funny
pretty outside, empty inside
that's what i find it funny and makes me wanna kick ur ass!
whenever the moment i look at you, i wish i can have a pointed weapon to stab you till death. leave my friends alone
you disgusted me, jerk!

2009-06-15T03:13:00.001+08:00

Under construction

sorry for the inconvenience

Leconte the sequel

2009-06-11T23:54:00.007+08:00

I just think that he sounds like leconte

Tell me a story or I'll tell you!

2009-06-10T13:34:00.005+08:00

I slept over at my youngest sibling's crib.
we were actually planning for the ghost story telling
and have our blankets over our heads.
then it goes like my sis told me a really lame tale..

Once upon a time, there are Holly, Polly, Dolly.
They are walking into the forest to find out the 500
dancing bears' myth in the magical field with
the fairy godmothers and yaadaa yaadaa...

It's like a sleeping pill indeed and this is the
reason keeps pulling me away from my biological age.
And lastly, i found something really interesting
from my littlest sis, Romance of the Three Kingdoms
in english version. cool thing.
I can really have a good night sleep from now on XP

Sounds familiar huh?

2009-06-08T23:47:00.004+08:00

Gossipeople

2009-06-05T00:15:00.005+08:00

Btw, I think Adam should go for a cuter one
instead of him

and

Joe Jonas is way too weird to follow beyonce!

Are we vocally siblings or biologically?

2009-06-04T23:23:00.008+08:00

Having two birthdays in a year
is not what you think it's cool.
Acting like a dummy is the only choice
to escape from the disaster!
I just feel like screaming out loud.
what you guys want me to do?
what you guys want from me?
I've been telling myself everything is under control.
The issue is driving me mental seriously.
If you were in my position, what would you do?
Tell me if there's anyone know how I feel.
This is the reason I don't believe in marriage.
Fuck the marriage. Fuck the broken marriage.
You can't fix the broken chips of the glass.
The bunch of casualties are suffering with your
Oh-dear-let's-get-married!

Check if you're ready for the commitment, loser!

I'm having a life PEOPLE !

2009-06-02T23:06:00.003+08:00

Noon: I had lunch with Joey and Leconte at The Curve
and lifelessly we walk to Ikea to smell some furniture.

Evening: Since it's been a long time i never catch up
with Kah yee and Yin ze so yeah I met them at Klcc
to have early dinner.

Night: I went to swim and played squash with
Esther and Anne a.k.a my piggies X)

so it seems i'm having a life right now just for this very moment! XP

Dude, how's the model thingy?

2009-05-31T21:29:00.005+08:00

Leconte went to a model competition
so i asked him if he's doing great.

Leconte says:
sighhh
Leconte says:
got kicked out lor
Leconte says:
if not why im here onlinetalking to you
Leconte says:
=(
g i n n y - says:
wth?
g i n n y - says:
r u serious?
Leconte says:
yalahh.
Leconte says:
so sad lahh
g i n n y - says:
omg
g i n n y - says:
im sorry about that
g i n n y - says:
but what's the reason u got kicked out?
Leconte says:
not good lah
Leconte says:
thats why kick out lah.
Leconte says:
sigh.
g i n n y - says:
r u ok
g i n n y - says:
i hope u doin good
Leconte says:
yea.
Leconte says:
and im sorry i just lied to you
Leconte says:
HEHE
g i n n y - says:
wtf
g i n n y - says:
it's not funny, leconte lee !
g i n n y - says:
u're just cursing urself
Leconte says:
la la laaaaaaaaaaa
Leconte says:
im still in la
Leconte says:
hehehehe
g i n n y - says:
whatever
g i n n y - says:
if u got kicked out
g i n n y - says:
don't cry like a old grandma
Leconte says:
i wont cry lahh
Leconte says:
everybody also cry when other ppl go out
Leconte says:
but i cannot cry wan
g i n n y - says:
lol
g i n n y - says:
until u kicked out!

My-so-called-oh-so-cute-niece!

2009-05-30T23:05:00.007+08:00

Name: Hannah Kwong
so adorable eh!

I went to visit her with the family yesterday. LOL
I can't just ignore her even for a sec..

taking her own sweet nap
after some crazy screaming session with us! =P

after the nap
she energized herself and snatch
my phone away from esther

Absolutely nothing wrong

2009-05-29T00:17:00.005+08:00

Going through Rine's blog is such a shame!
she was saying that us behaved strangely
but still I accept it as a compliment!
twisties + caramel pop-corn
- created by me
chili sauce with pepper and salt + french fries
- created by ron
The food paradise. I hope you won't die once you tried.
but we got SIN-tific proven! LOL
anyways, meeting up with Zhefung this sat!
my lovely sissy bestie in form 4! XP

Festival thingy is quite annoying!

2009-05-28T17:50:00.006+08:00

Went shopping with Joey
bought some cheap stuff to manja myself =P
I just realised both of us were
having a different style. LOL
her say was like so-ginny, so-leconte, so-me! -.-
anyways i'm home now for the dumpling festival.
all the families are cooking for the reunion dinner.
Joey, my mum invited you for the dinner
but sad you having one!

And I don't know why I started to make friends
with all my sister's friends.
Like I know most of them.
I like kids a lot seriously and they are so naive.
I just love the way they behave but at the same time
their dramatic life is looming.
Just like how we used to be last time.
so dramatic and mean but note to yourself :
high school friends are what you called true friends!

Actions speak louder than words

2009-05-27T12:45:00.007+08:00

When we were small, parents taught us
how to say S-O-R-R-Y
when you do something wrong, automatically
this 5 letter words will
straight come out from your mouth and
parents need a lot of training for it.
Such as when you are being dishonest,
you need to say sorry
or you have not complete the task given earlier,
you need to say sorry.
Parents NOT only train their kids vocally but mentally as well.
Kids need to feel sorry in order to apologize to someone.
Most importantly, parents need to show good example.
When parents in wrong, they need to apologize to their kids.
In order to let the kids know, they are not doing it alone
but everyone do so when they do something wrong.

And so lessons learnt. Parents tend to
forget the lessons/lectures they given.
It's easy for them to teach but can hardly hear the
S-O-R-R-Y from them.
They think it's fine not to say it just because
they are somewhat older than us.
So it's really all craps to listen to them.
I think I can be a better parents than mine.
At least I'm showing the example to my younger siblings.
when they tell me what they think, I would give a really
good explanation and tell them
what's right and what's wrong.
They need to understand in order to follow the rules.
They need to be in others position to understand their situations.

I just hate it when you scream at me without any clues.
As if you are mentally disturbed.

What if

2009-05-24T23:35:00.005+08:00

Sometimes we were all hoping that if happens in our life.
but having a well-planned life doesn't mean you're are
perfect enough to pursue your own happiness.

I can't imagine what am I doing the next 10 years time
or even the very next moment!
Life is just too short to loiter around i guess.
We NOT gonna accept it but live it to the max!
I think I should probably plan my vacation
with my very first pay in future.

dubai Paris maldives london

damnclassycanfreakingkillyou!!!

2009-05-22T12:33:00.005+08:00

Look at this gold plated, Royal Wii !
compared to ours-lame white plastic all over!

The boy next door!

2009-05-22T00:04:00.002+08:00

Kris got the title

of the American idol

X) !

How much did I borrow?

2009-05-20T23:47:00.003+08:00

Damn it. I can't catch American Idol tmr at 8am.
I wanted to see Kris so badly! uckkk...!
FYI, I'm going to the state of 'siew pao' tmr! If u get it..
omg. I don't care. who's gonna pay for it?
anyways, I'm sure Kris gonna win and
bring the i'm-so-gay adam down!
I just think he's gay with his eyeliner! XP

IfeelsleepyshouldIjustsleep

2009-05-20T07:55:00.004+08:00

I'm missing Leconte already!
He left like 1 week plus!
I would love not to see him now until July
until he get what he wanted!
so yeah, miss the lameness of him so much
and nobody gonna text me early in the morning
to go for brunch or shopping while I'm still dreaming!
No matter how bitchy he used to be..
I still can recalled the whole thing
In form 4, I was forced to join march past due to
lack of ppl in john house.
I joined 2 days before the final practice for sports day.
so yeah I marched like crap and he
stood behind me and called me dumb!
that moment was so hard and i pretended like
i-can't-hear-you-what-did-you-just-said
as if i-didn't-know-you-just-called-me-a-dumb!
if u're reading this, don't ask me if you did cuz you just did!

Then he turned up became 1 of my besties in form 5 -.-
we went Singapore together with Patricia as well.
we stayed at my cousie's crib and he did something gross
he slept beside me and the very moment
i wanted to get off the bed
my whole hand was feeling something sticky and wet
which he just salivated on the bed and still
he gave me that stare-whaaat?!

anyways, i just love him being himself
not with the dumb calling/excessive flow of saliva! XP

whatiwasdoingwasright!

2009-05-20T01:28:00.005+08:00

I think I'm having a sleeping problem, sort of!
thought of webcam-ing with Vanessa but she's working!

okay! It seems no one score high in my quizzes..
even my family =(
sigh. no one really knows me!
well, maybe i kept things in myself and
i don't really express my inner self.

The reason is i think express yourself to someone is harder
than keeping it yourself.
I don't like to burden ppl and make them in a hard situation.
I think ppl see you attach with negative issues is annoying.
I'm just trying to make things simple.

Of course. Everyone has his/her own hardships to deal with.
Even the happiest person in this world. I'm sure!
Maybe I will complain when i'm drunk! LOL
well. I do wish I can express my darkest pain though, really.
Just so hard to keep it!

anyways, i lost track of meeting up with new ppl
since i stopped college has been a while so
it's tough for me to find my incredibly rich BFF!
well, i think single is what best but the siblings of mine
was complaining that i need to find a BFF.
Maybe they find me overly attached to them
so they are trying to get rid of me!!
They love me so much! -.-

I think that's really mean of me for judging you!

2009-05-19T23:27:00.007+08:00

Being a girl in a family is not cool at all.

can't stay up late even for a sec outside!

anyways, yum cha session with Joey

was funny and educative

i knew more about chiromancy and the

invest-reinvest stuff =P

and btw, we bumped into Jonathan Chong

when we are about to off!

The guy with slaannng!

whole Stella's used to called him that

but i think he's great though!

uck! time flies! i need to get some sleeep now!

I didn't know

2009-05-19T12:28:00.006+08:00

there's a library clown at all ! X)

good bye, Finale!

2009-05-18T19:15:00.004+08:00

Oh crap! I wonder how grey's gonna run in season 6

Katherine and T.R Knight ciao-ed

Chyler, mothering is what she does best

Ellen is having her first child!

Tell me, what's next for grey's?

It seems my favourite show is sneaking out to nowhere..

and i'm going back to

DIRTY SEXY MONEY!

2009-05-17T22:43:00.002+08:00

I h<3art Kris

Play your card well before you raise the stake!

2009-05-17T16:45:00.008+08:00

Hello to angels and demons

I'm sorry for the negligence
which has been a while
when the moment i woke up this morning,
my bro told me Linus got into an accident last night
I thought my bro was sleep talking at first
rapid heartbeat was the result of the bad news
all of us got no clue where he is and
we were so messed up to find out
then....
we just found out that he's doing fine
and yet with an injured hand
AND
he can even make jokes!

OMG. Thank god!
May god bless him

anyways that something in my chest
and I need to blurt it out

If you are friend of mine,
I would do anything you asked just
because you are my friend

If you are not..
you are still under my supervision
BUT NEVER
betrayals

For god sake! I'm not an idiot
who just delivered yesterday.
you fooled me once
and tricked me the second time
Okay. maybe I'm partially an idiot!
You conned me TWICE!
so shut the hell up and get a life!
and most importantly out of my sight!

Note to self: The wild bitch will eventually show her dark side!

can't read my m-m-mother's day!

2009-05-10T09:38:00.005+08:00

Happy mother's day !
I can't wait for the no bake cookies
for my beloved mother
well, i'm not a baking person
(since my mum put me on bake restriction)
so it's really like rocket science for me
to bake real cookies

and i just realized
there's another reason
for my future BFF or hubby
to kick me out of the game! hah

time to get wild with the family =)

Immediate aftermath

2009-05-08T13:21:00.004+08:00

Christ. I can feel there's an uneven stitches
on my inner side of my mouth.
Oh i forgot. My dentist is fantastic in dental everything
BUT stitches. so should i go for a plastic surgeon
or a well known tailor? crap.
oh god. Usually i take 10-15 mins to brush my teeth
and now i need another 10 mins extra -.-
I still feel the pain and the stitches pulling me in
when i open up my mouth. ouch!
the pain still running up and down.
I can't imagine i've been suffering like that
for almost a whole damn week.
so for those who live in a cloud cuckoo land,
you don't know how I feel exactly.

anyways, i'm taking 90210 as my pain killer.

I want a clown who keeps me entertained

2009-05-04T19:21:00.012+08:00

I had my dental surgery yesterday.
In the half an hour, there are so much flashbacks
and thoughts all over my head.

when i was small, i used to think that
I'm the step child of my mother.
when i was small, i need go to school by bus
but both of my sis was sent by her and strangely
our school are just next to each other.

when i was small, i was bullied by both of my elder siblings
and mostly i was to blamed who started the fire.

Then when i turned to form 1 and had my spoilt brat trial.
Thinking that i was supposed to be like everyone else,
imitate one another, not following the rules instead i need to
make things happen and get wild with the so called 'mafia' in my class.

Just when I'm still having my honeymoon then here comes the giant bee,
my mum transferred me to Stella Maris and
this is where my nightmare begins.
So i still think that I'm not her biological daughter
cuz i can't scratch the itch-
when the cat's away then the mice will play
in this not-so-mine territory.

After so many chased by the cat, Mrs.kang.
My lessons learned.
I'm running the same blood as my parents.
I learn to build my own pride, my knowledge, my friendship, my family hood and all these was made by Stella Maris. Without it. I'm officially a piece of junk!
Seriously, the credit goes to my mum. She's a well trainer of the family.

Apparently, I need Esther to learn so badly,
how to be an independent child from now on.
It's been a doubt in my head.
If i get to go to the states to pursuit my further studies.
I wonder if she can survive alone without the sibling's guidance.

It is my biggest fear in my life.
She having the best everything in her life
and i need her to be a useful person.
To be precise, I'm a total failure compared to her and
this is why i want to make sure her life is in apple pie order
without the darkest influence from anyone else.

God, may you bless my family and I.

Lastly, i'm having congee right now. more like a baby food.
Joyce and Rine were complaining me eating all the time in genting =(

Moronismakesitougher

2009-04-30T22:05:00.008+08:00

I thought you were different..
like seriously different from others!
sigh. maybe i was over reacted
I know there's no way for the apology crap!
and i miss those days when we were having fun together
we used to like good friends to hang out with.
i'm really sorry for the
i-didn't-know-what-to-do-so-i-just-escaped-alone
and i know the feeling right now that being ignored
when i came from nowhere and
so happened to make my apology to freaked you out!
jesus christ! nothing worse than that!
I am really sorry for giving you a hard time.

Judge me, your wish!

2009-04-28T21:31:00.006+08:00

They named me crazy

but i prefer Cheesy

If you can't see any

you don't know what called funny

afterall, it's just plain ME!

my first parachute ever

wtf. look at this crap! -__-

Oops! Is that jas?

2009-04-28T19:16:00.004+08:00

I bumped into Jasmine at gardens. LOL
while I was waiting for my mum and sis.
she didn't know until I called her.
we both were so anxious about our application status =(
anyways, all the best and good luck for ur finals, Jas!
hopefully, we could update each other good news real sooon!

note to L: u're really a bad liar and let's have party! =)

Britain's got plenty of talent!

2009-04-28T08:31:00.006+08:00

It's really amazing with such high pitch

Hollie's my another favourite

It seems a new makeover is not enough, susan.

deeply S-O-R-R-Y!

2009-04-28T00:27:00.003+08:00

It took me really long
to have the courage to talk to you!
I know maybe it's too late for me to do that
or maybe you just don't bother anymore BUT I DO!
I've been struggling around and
I just realised that i'm being too selfish!
I don't hope for anything and i'm really sorry..

PSYed me up!

2009-04-27T20:35:00.003+08:00

I had movie with Joyce and Rine!
we watched The Uninvited..
I'm really sorry, joyce!
If i ever made u mad at me for not telling u at first!
LOL. I promised i'm not gonna tell lies again..
well, on the other way.. it made sense too!
The movie is not some kind of typical horror movie.
It teaches us how a mentally ill person can seriously
made up the whole story itself..
somehow, the story line kinda impressed me.
anyways, i gotta bath right now.
the weather is killing me.. it makes me feel sticky!
and sticky really gross me out!

Twins, NOT!

2009-04-25T00:17:00.008+08:00

Deputy principal of the school
Mr. Joachim: Hey how's your sis?
esther: well, she's great! still waiting for the application review
Mr. Joachim: you know what? whenever i see you, i see your sister..

One of my favourite twosome
Lec: eh, you and your sis damn look alike
Me: why?
Lec: she added me in facebook, i thought it was you..

even My youngest sibling
Anne: jie, come and watch this (some series on disney channel)
Me: ignoring..* (I was busy doing my stuff and had my back facing her)
Anne: jie, u heard me?
Me: what..?
Anne: oh i thought you were esther..

guess this is the only moment
i think we look alike!

Application status: review of documents

2009-04-24T11:15:00.004+08:00

Thanks to CIS for the update of my application status!
so yeah gotta wait for the review now..
Hopefully i got accepted same goes to Jasmine!
I'm praying hard, really hard!
I'm gonna share the burden with Vanessa
and i guess i'm ready for it.
God, do bless me for this very moment.

Cut me. surgeon!

2009-04-22T20:42:00.005+08:00

I went to see my very own dentist in the afternoon
Sometimes I think God hates me...
hates me until my dentist tell me that
I have 2 wisdom teeth at the bottom left and right
The same case for both, lies down horizontally.
I was like WHAT-THE-HECK? are u kidding me?
I need to extract the bottom left first.
that means not long the bottom right
gonna pop out and say hi to me! -__-
seriously, the pain is crazy! can die wey
as if someone trying to cut you with blade
slowly then u can bleed and die!
I need to wait until 4th of may for my tiny little surgery
open up my mouth for 1 hr
like a retard salivaring non-stop!
My gosh! what world is this?
I tot nowadays they can simply do everything
in silent mode and without u to see the whole process?
tsk! can't wait to act like a retard and extract my fugly wisdom tooth!

What the FOOD!

2009-04-22T11:27:00.003+08:00

Roar. The food feed me ceaselessly.
I wish I can have a mild fever or flu so that
I can stop eating for just a little while!
christ. I'm a total work out failure.
I sleep, I eat, I sleep and I eat and
they goes my routine -__-

You are under my spell

2009-04-21T02:03:00.005+08:00

I dreamt of Merlin.

All i know, it is a british television series.

The main character named Merlin then end of story.

he's a talented sorcerer who attempts to

keep his powers secret and will one day

become the greatest wizard in the world.

It says that to see a particular actor or actress

in your dream

look at the role they are playing

it consider also who this actor/actress is and

what characteristics you associate with him or her

These may be the same characteristics that

you need to acknowledge or incorporate into yourself.

great! a wizard who do magic

that sounds a little too much! LOL

I wish I could invent a time machine!

2009-04-21T00:51:00.003+08:00

I'm chatting with joey in msn
It's been a while since I'm not a msn person
unless talking to vanessa early in the morning
not much spamming just some virus
(Leconte! ur diet/some flirty msg are killing me!)
anyways the conversation is hilarious
it reminds me of the past
how we used to be, like a big kid!
it's hard to believe that we are having college life now
and few steps away from the harsh reality!
sigh. life just not fun at all
the learning process in life is really expensive
which we can't afford for it's theory
so try to maximise happiness and stop being negative
and all day long u have good smile! =)

Wisdom tooth

2009-04-20T18:10:00.009+08:00

I'm always a winner
when comes to bumpy situation
I won a lottery
I went to a dentist today, randomly
I just wanna check if i have cavity
then i stepped in for consultation with Dr.Robert

Doc: what's wrong with you?
Me: err..i think i need an extraction!
Doc: extraction..?
(smiling)
Me: well, i'm not sure is this a wisdom tooth..
(pointing at my wisdom tooth)
Doc: yeah, that's the wisdom tooth! how long u've been in pain?
Me: err..not long! several months...
Doc: so long and u don't bother to find a dentist?
Me: (keep smiling to get out of embarrassment)
Doc: i think u need to get an x-ray for it..
(laughing)
Me: hopefully i don't have a funny tooth
(self wondering)
Doc: no big deal actually! it takes about 1 hr for the surgery..
Me: huh?
(that's a little VERY long!)
Doc: well, as u can see ur wisdom tooth lies down
horizontally so i need to cut it half and extract the remainder.
Me: oh okay, so i need to make appointment for the surgery again?
Doc: yeah and it cost 950 for that!
Me: okay, i will make an appointment then! Thanks doc!

It seems my wisdom tooth is not that wise after all